Hello there,
Well It's me again.
After countless abandon blogs #includesallsocialmedia guess i'm back again in blogspot.
With a new blog domain #pretendinglikeitsthefirsttime

It's year 2015 now, yet i'm not improving.
I guess, that includes everything. See i'm still that negative afterall. Struggling to be me.
I mean the Real-Me.

See, 2015 is not really being nice to me.
Is just the first month of the year. And i still have so much things to do in life, i may/may not just stop here and wrap it up.
Meanwhile, just let me being me- Lazy and Whinny

I dont know how a new blogspot will make it up these time, at least i dont spend like 20 hours thinking of the perfect domain, perfect layout, perfect photo.
I have deal with much bullshit.
And i have decided to skip this one.
Only this time. (Maybe)

You see, maybe life is not as perfect as those fairy tales (where there is morality, where there is justice and where bad people will have karma and die and you'll life happily ever after)
No-no-no.
I maybe young but im pretty positive about this.
That life is not perfect.
So i figure out that, i struggled all this while because-
i just want to be perfect and perfectionalism is eating me.
But i can't help it.
Not to say im perfect or even near to perfect.
Is just im not easily satisfy.

Now, now.
But dont be wrong,
I'm not really well-planned (even i have an organizer at all time)
I'm not neatly prep and im definately the-most-careless-person-on-earth
I may win the nobel prize for this. #heckyeah
Believe me, as much as people hate me,
that is how much i wanted to change.

I don't know did i ever change? Or i'm trying to make myself believe that i have change.
So, back to the point.
Why cliche?

If you know me long enough you'll know.
If you do not. Well, i'm pretty cliche. (shhhhhs....)
Cause i tend to talk talk talk talk talk about the same old damn thing again and again and again without getting tired at it, and still get angry at it all the time.
I don't understand myself either.
I just dont get sick of it.
As much i want to prove myself not wrong, and as much i realize that i have put myself in deepshit with all this talking.

Believe me,
I myself, if i could, i want to hire some-sort-of-assassin-from-Ming-dynasty to be-head me.
And it will be finally world peace.
Obviously that's over-the-board or plainly bull-shit cause i'll shit in my pants if some random assassin appears infront of me with a sword or what-do-you-call-those-bamboo-weapon? where you can blow some-sort-of-poison needle straight to your enemy ass?
And i dont know why Ming dynasty. #random
Or maybe i shall place myself in a old-folks home to get rid myself of society.
Me poisoning their mind and soul. Can you even imagine? #eyerolls
That's more rational. I guess?

For goodness sake.
this is not politics, nor any form-6 additional math.
but it is hell dirty and difficult to figure my life out.
I need to get my shits right and my pants up.
And get my life steering straight.

See-
Now you know what i mean.
It's about like 300 words or more,
Just trying to decribe how i can't figure my life out.
That's what we call  a shallow person.
Cliche enough.

Ok, after i have thrown myself in a deep sea fill with piranhas.
I shall start my introduction about myself,
The brighter side of me- at least that is how i like to think about myself.

• I like to speak out the truth.
• I love to shop
• I like to peek on handsome boys. Now that i have one, i have to finally settle down.
• I hate to use my brain to think, or to do the things that i hate.
• Im officially a coffee addict.
• I hate heavily sugarly food.
• I dont know the title of the music im listening (almost all the time)
• I hate doing nothing
• I hate fake people, and i never pretend to like them.
• I hate hypocrites
• I hate people who lower down other self-esteem for their self-pleasure.
• I super-duper-crazily-easily shed tears
• I love gifts
• I only respect people who respect me
• I usually back off if someone offends me, but if you're trying on my durability or patience, you're walking on a very fine thread honey

So, last but not least, this is gonna be MY blogpost.
Walk off, if you dont like it.
Only appreciate people who matters to me.

Till then,
Love Karen

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