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It's time to start living in the present.
"Letting go of the past is not easy, especially if you have wounds that
have never properly healed. But, the past is past and living there may
be preventing you from fully experiencing the present. Likewise fear of
what may be looming around the corner can also prevent you from fully
enjoying the present."Well, i think rest is enough. Slacking for about 2 months, definately gave me the energy to strive again this year. It may not start well, but why must i made my other 10 months miserable? Well, maybe i shall start ignoring people who dosent matter the most for me. Those people are those who will weigh you down. I couldnt remember when was the last time i care so much about What people talks, think, recite, about me. Having to earn 2000 USD is not an easy job. I keep asking why people couldnt help? Why people couldnt understand? From today onwards, I shall not ask why anymore. Because these people do not matter. They are there only for 4 years of your entire life. You have so much more to do, to achieve. Why let them weigh you down? This stupidity had to come to an end. The end- Is today. And today is beginning of me. I'll do whats the best for me. Love, Karen The Excruciating Pain
Hi there,It's cloudy here in Bandung Indonesia. I was planning to do reorganize my bag and also my planner until..... 
I woke up, and i realised i just kill someone.
Just Kidding.
This is how exactly a girl feels when they woke up with period.
Is the worst time of the month. Trust me.
And you'll be finding for tampons and pads.  And you always wish that you could just HOCUS POCUS some tampons, 
And by the time you're done changing your tampons.
And believe me,
There will always be Some random different guy appear and say...  
And when you try to held back you're emotion
Trying not to hurt the poor little guy.
And when the guy went overboard and tell you that getting kicked in the balls is worse than cramps
That is when even the Lord gave you permission to loose your senses.
and i'am glad you asked...
Well, it is nothing much different...
Let me get you a picture... it should be not much different from this...
and obviously is not only once, you little brat...
Are you kidding?
 Well i guess that should wrap it all. And.... 
Next, lets talk about cravings, Every now and then you will feel like this... 
4 days before...
a day before...
on that day itself.....
a few days after....
And your emotion would be like this....
For the first few minutes,
Out of sudden you have the cramps.
And then, for the next few minutes, you would think of how bad your life is compare to the others...
and then...
you feel that you're so much more luckier than the other less fortunate...
And you start wondering what have you achieve so many years back.
And you realise you had achieve nothing..
and you started to be like this again...
And when your family tells you that you're overreacting
And when someone asked you, if is it the time of the month 
You'll be like... 
and you'll say this
And you will feel this all the time..
If someone asked you if youkissed the floor,
This is the answer... 
And when people asked why are you absent from class?
Well because im happy being home just being me...a total crap.
And you texted you're friend this...
And when you expected for something the completely opposite came. 
And the end of the week, or mayb more.
When It's finally over... 
And trust me, your evil uterus is grinning and saying... 
And you're like this when its over...
Here's to all the girl who is having their period 
Thats all for now, Love Karen. The Starting Point (Again)
Hello there,Well It's me again. After countless abandon blogs #includesallsocialmedia guess i'm back again in blogspot. With a new blog domain #pretendinglikeitsthefirsttime It's year 2015 now, yet i'm not improving. I guess, that includes everything. See i'm still that negative afterall. Struggling to be me. I mean the Real-Me. See, 2015 is not really being nice to me. Is just the first month of the year. And i still have so much things to do in life, i may/may not just stop here and wrap it up. Meanwhile, just let me being me- Lazy and Whinny I dont know how a new blogspot will make it up these time, at least i dont spend like 20 hours thinking of the perfect domain, perfect layout, perfect photo. I have deal with much bullshit. And i have decided to skip this one. Only this time. (Maybe) You see, maybe life is not as perfect as those fairy tales (where there is morality, where there is justice and where bad people will have karma and die and you'll life happily ever after) No-no-no. I maybe young but im pretty positive about this. That life is not perfect. So i figure out that, i struggled all this while because- i just want to be perfect and perfectionalism is eating me. But i can't help it. Not to say im perfect or even near to perfect. Is just im not easily satisfy. Now, now. But dont be wrong, I'm not really well-planned (even i have an organizer at all time) I'm not neatly prep and im definately the-most-careless-person-on-earth I may win the nobel prize for this. #heckyeah Believe me, as much as people hate me, that is how much i wanted to change. I don't know did i ever change? Or i'm trying to make myself believe that i have change. So, back to the point. Why cliche? If you know me long enough you'll know. If you do not. Well, i'm pretty cliche. (shhhhhs....) Cause i tend to talk talk talk talk talk about the same old damn thing again and again and again without getting tired at it, and still get angry at it all the time. I don't understand myself either. I just dont get sick of it. As much i want to prove myself not wrong, and as much i realize that i have put myself in deepshit with all this talking. Believe me, I myself, if i could, i want to hire some-sort-of-assassin-from-Ming-dynasty to be-head me. And it will be finally world peace. Obviously that's over-the-board or plainly bull-shit cause i'll shit in my pants if some random assassin appears infront of me with a sword or what-do-you-call-those-bamboo-weapon? where you can blow some-sort-of-poison needle straight to your enemy ass? And i dont know why Ming dynasty. #random Or maybe i shall place myself in a old-folks home to get rid myself of society. Me poisoning their mind and soul. Can you even imagine? #eyerolls That's more rational. I guess? For goodness sake. this is not politics, nor any form-6 additional math. but it is hell dirty and difficult to figure my life out. I need to get my shits right and my pants up. And get my life steering straight. See- Now you know what i mean. It's about like 300 words or more, Just trying to decribe how i can't figure my life out. That's what we call a shallow person. Cliche enough. Ok, after i have thrown myself in a deep sea fill with piranhas. I shall start my introduction about myself, The brighter side of me- at least that is how i like to think about myself.
Walk off, if you dont like it. Only appreciate people who matters to me. Till then, Love Karen |